May 2011
1 post
March 2011
6 posts
Those Days
There are always those days. The ones where our pants decide to not fit right, and our hair just won’t cooperate. There are the times when we realized we did terrible on a paper we worked hard on. There are the times you find out someone in registration has messed up your transcripts, so you can’t sign up for your classes on time. Then there are the times when you find out your room...
Alone
It seems no matter what happens, I end up alone. Whether it is for a night, when I really need someone, or in a broader sense of my life. Is it my own fault? Do I isolate myself? I’m so sick of being lonesome when he’s not there. I’m doing it again, and it’s not healthy. It certainly isn’t ok. I need something other than a boy to fill my time. For tonight though,...
I love being happy. It makes everything so much easier. I love having a boyfriend who isn’t a horrible jerk. I love having a God who is merciful enough to save me from everything that I used to be, and allowing me to live an entirely new life that is so different, so much better, and so beautiful.
Thank you God for my amazing life. C:
February 2011
5 posts
Sunshine
Life has its ups and downs. Yes, that’s true, but you can control how you interpret them, and you can choose how you behave because of them. I choose to react positively. I choose to have a uplifting belief system, and I will make a positive impact of things, so that others will do the same.
God has great things planned for me, and I’m starting to see the bright side of his plans.
C:
Bittersweet
You never know how much you were hurt by something in your past until something good comes to you again, and you realize how much you feel as if you don’t deserve it.
Thank You so Much
To God:
You amaze me God. Every moment of every day. You can take even the most awful and hard situations, And turn them around. When I think it’s all over, And that I’ve lost and am about to give in, You surprise me with your powerful and miraculous deeds. Thank you so much for giving me this chance. You have help me over the first obstacle, One that I thought was unsurpassable. Now...
January 2011
14 posts
No more distractions Because they just bide my time And keep me from seeing the sun Come up over the boulevard…
Kinda makes no sense, but I like it. It makes sense to me.
Bleckgh
So that new like a little thing is really strange. Okay, maybe its not new, but it’s the first I’ve heard of it, so it’s new to me. I don’t really like it all that much. It’s kind of creepy to think that someone is watching you, and reporting that they are doing so on a website. But it’s even weirder when its about you. So ok, I know it’s probably one of...
SQUEEEEE!!!!!!
That is all I have to say. heehee
Strength
Alright. I’m back home. Soon its back to classes and homework. For now friends and new people are what take up my day. But tonight, he comes back. And things will be very different. Lord, please give me the strength to remember and use all the things that you have taught me the past few weeks. I pray that I will be kind, and loving, and sweet. I hope that he will notice that I am happy....
How could I possibly be jealous of someone I have...
I am a horrible person.
Wielding Love
Sometimes I just don’t see why love is any good for anything. We all have those old scars on our hearts thanks to those old flames we thought were the ones.
The more I ponder on why love hurts, the more I realize it’s not the love that’s scarring us, it’s the people who don’t know how to use it that hurt us. Kind of like the old saying its not the gun that kills...
Finally, My Official Near Year Resolutions
okay, so here is the official list:
1) Practice the Piano once a day. Okay, so if I want to be anywhere near good enough in my career to do well and succeed, I need to be better at this instrument. I can play. Not well. So I’m going to play at least a little bit a day, even if I don’t have that much time. I’m also taking lessons, so that will help things move along.
2) Project...
God has a plan for everything. We never can see what it is until he wants to reveal it to us, but when he does, he can take the most difficult situations and turn then into something wonderful and beautiful. Thank you God. Im glad there was a good reason that I went.
December 2010
13 posts
Fixing things
So tonight, this is it. Tonight I start all those new year resolutions I promised I would. But before I do, I need to add some to the list.
Apparently, I have a temper. I guess I never really noticed it, but it’s there, so he says. So I will work on that. Next, I’ll work on my language. I’ve only cussed a very few times around him, but I guess it was enough. Those two little...
I know I promised I wouldn’t care, but it’s really hard not to. I just wish I hadn’t come. I want to go home and cry under my covers.
That was the most expensive disappointment I’ve ever paid for.
“You are more than the choices that you’ve made. You are more than the sum...”
– Tenth Avenue North
Promise
Alright. I’m gonna go. And when I get there, I will act as if nothing is different, because it very well might not be. But if it is, I won’t care. I will put it out of my mind, and I will have a good time. I will. I won’t let myself do any less.
This is what I’m going to make myself promise to do. No matter what. Because it’s only one full day. And no matter how...
Roller Coaster
I’ve forgotten how hard it is to have a crush on someone. It’s a thrashing roller coaster, that twists and turns, loops and cork screws, and the only thing you know to do is to hold on for dear life. You hold your breath, hoping that is ends happy, hoping that your heart and head is in tact at the end, and that when your done, there is someone to hold your hand at the end of the...
Heaven
random-people:
She is his heaven on earth. He is holding her hand and he looks so content, there is nothing in the world he would rather be doing. He can’t take his eyes off her. Don’t let her go, stranger.
“Baby you’ll be famous, chase you down until you love me, Paparazzi.”
– Paparazzi, Lady Gaga
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Rewind, and Start Over
Ok, so, I kinda wigged out last time. I’ve been thinking (which is never a good thing, as it got me in this mess in the first place), and I’ve come to the conclusion I might have blown things up just a little in my own head. Three weeks away from the drama SHOULD have been a blessing, but of course, not in my world. My mind can’t keep still for that long. I’m still trying...
The Game
I hate crushes. I hate them with a burning passion.
Since when did society decide this was the way that we were going to handle dating? Because I’m fairly sure this is the stupidest way we could have come up with. Most of the time, we barely get to know someone before we decide we like them, or other people around you decide you should like them. Stupid.
Next, it’s stupid that after...
I love Sweet Home Alabama. It’s such a cute movie <3
teehee. The music geek in me approves... →
Beautiful Moments
And so it is christmas break. Life is so very different now it seems. I’m not so sure what to make of it. You think in High School that everything is so confusing and hard and painful, and that you just can’t wait till you’re done and in college, and that everything will be better. But that is so not true. In fact, I think in a way, college is worse. At least in light of big...